BabyBambi

"Love takes time to heal when you’re hurting so much"
—Mariah Carey

Just like a line of Mariah Carey’s song entitled "Love take Time" isn’t it true what its saying?…. Indeed it is hard to forgive and forget somebody who caused much pain in your heart. You can’t easily erase those things that he did which made you down and heartbroken.

Its confusing…yes…but its only you who could decide..whether to gamble/play the game of so called "LOVE"….

If there’s a special song, a guy could sing in front of me that could melt my heart and make me fall head over heels……….its gonna be this romantic song from Stephen Speaks band…:-)

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—>Out Of My League<—-

it's her hair and her eyes today 

that just simply take me away 

and the feeling that i'm falling further in love 

makes me shiver but in a good way

all the times i have sat and stared 

as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair

and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,

with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say 

coz i love her with all that i am 

and my voice shakes along with my hands 

coz she's all that I see and she's all that I need

and i'm out of my league once again 

it's a master for melody when she calls out my name to me

as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes 

and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise 

coz i love her with all that i am 

and my voice shakes along with my hands 

cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea 

but i'd rather be here than on land 

yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need 

and i'm out of my league once again

it's her hair and her eyes today 

that just simply take me away 

and the feeling that i'm falling further in love 

makes me shiver but in a good way

all the times i have sat and stared 

as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair

and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,

with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say 

coz i love her with all that i am 

and my voice shakes along with my hands 

cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea 

but i'd rather be here than on land 

yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need 

and i'm out of my league once again

Kiana Claire is my only one niece she’s four years old now… All of grandma and pa’s attentions are at her. She is so energetic. Can sing to music and even dance.. Impersonating Darna or even Captain Barbel. I was so irrirated before because of her being "naughty".. I sometimes yell at her and made her cry. I am so moody and it affects the people around me alot especially her.

Three years ago as i can still remember, Kiana is a happy child, chubby and roam around the house as if a "boss", eat alot of foods (any kind) and a baby’s skin that’s smooth and healthy..
But after a  year, a child’s health condition bothers me. She has been hospitalized due to constipation and doctor’s finding was so called "Amoeba" and her baby’s skin suffered small wounds almost 30% of her body and mostly in her legs.. Her eating habits and health affect alot by her condition. Her weight boost down and she cant barely move due to her wounds, even her studies (kinder student)… Poor niece..How can i help her in her very young age suffering from this condition..?

Just this morning and i can’t take it anymore. I held her in my arms and kissed her right after her mother gave her medications on her wounds. I let her seat in my lap as she’s sobbed and lend her head on my chest. My mother came in and told her to forcely treat her wounds and there she again began crying.. I tend to stopped her hold her cheek and she suddenly held my hands and held it so tight. I can feel how she struggled by this. I caressed and and kissed her as tears fell from my eyes.. I pity her so much she’s so young. She should enjoy her childhood days and those wounds stop her from doing normal things like her playmates..
So i talked to her, I said " Baby, i really can’t take seeing you being like this. I pity you, try to look at you, you seem so different. I want to help you but you should help your self too. I want you to eat well and if there’s anything you want to eat just tell me and i’ll buy them for you." She listened as i said those words and stared at me and asked me " You’re crying…?? " With confusion on her face..Tears still rolled over my eyes as i said "Yes baby, I am crying because of you. I want you to be healed"… And again kissed and hug her as she let me hug her so tight.. So i asked her, "What would you want Tita (Aunt) to bring you tomorrow after work?". She answered  "I want to eat Burger Steak (Jollibee) (Her Favorite since she can’t eat chicken nor pork, shrimp just beef)." So i told her to bring her that one tomorrow and that’s a promise. I also told her that i wil buy her new slipper and the one that’s sof to comfort her feet.

When lunch time came, her mother called her to eat. She said no, so I offered her that i’ll be the one to feed her and she agreed. We have beef "Nilaga" for lunch and offered her that. But she refused to eat beef and told me that she will just eat rice with beef’s soup on it. I cheered her up and told her that she will eat more then. And she promised me to.

After eating she layed down and told her Mama to sleep as i sleep too for i still have work at night. As i was sleeping, and that time she was already awake, she talked to my mother and said "Nanay, I promise i will eat more so that Tita Nene (thats me) will be happy and won’t be sad anymore because i pity her as she is worrying about me." My mother smiled and said " Good Inday (thats what she call her) very good, so that you will have that chubby cheek again". And she smiled at Nanay.

When night time came as i woke up to be ready for work, Nanay told me about what Kiana told her. I want to cry (for happiness) coz she somehow put my words in her mind. And she came to me and i hugged her and kiss her again. Her Mama fed her for dinner and after she ate she yelled at me and said "Look Tita i ate alot as i promised you!". I smiled and told her "Good baby, Keep up the good work! And tomorrow when i come home, i’ll bring you Burger Steak". She run to me and gave me a hug..

Its such a nice feeling when somebody give you happiness which no one could ever give. Kiana is one of my inspiration although i am strict to her and yell her but deep inside of me, i care for her, her health, and future. I won’t leave you baby and promise you that your Tita Nene is always here to love, guide and protect you from harm. I’m praying for you condition so much i want my you to be happy, enjoy and i want you little arms to hug and hold at times…

I love you baby….Tita loves you so much!

A happy smile for a very loving niece….
I love you baby..!

I Could Not Ask For More

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
These are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I found all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have’s come true
And right here in this moment is right where I’m meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
These are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I’ve got all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
‘Coz it’s all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

One of my Fav song: from Phantom of the Opera…

All I Ask
Of You by Phantom Of The Opera
;[Both] denotes Christine and Raoul.

[Phantom]
You will curse the day you did not do all that the Phantom asked of you!

Its been a month since i work as an SEO  here in EVERSUN…So far I’m enjoying my job and it’s a great feeling to receive your own salary…I work for about 8 hours a day from 10pm till 7am. Even if i am sometimes stressed by this job, but still I’m thankful i have one unlike to those who have none and do nothing….

It had been five years since i graduated High School.It was the most memorable time of my teenage life then.Lots of my friends went to different places to find better job for them after graduating College. I have one friend who went to the USA some went to Manila while others stayed here in Iloilo for good. But even if they are just around,still we don’t have that much time to spend ones company.Missing them is just so hard to handle. There were times where i reminisced the times we’ve shared all those laughs, heartaches and the misunderstanding we had. I really miss my High School friends coz the bond that we have are so strong and so different from others.

It’s been weeks since i went up the stage for graduation in my College years. Five years of studying, making projects and hectic schedules, all have paid because at last i finished my course. If there is one thing that i miss after graduation, it’ll be my classmates and close friends. I miss all the naughty things my classmates were making,all those jokes and ice breakers,and well of course the tight bonding of cheats during exams/quizzes(teamwork works!). I miss my very close friends so much the PEDAS of course. I remember those times where we had our hard times, misunderstandings and fights which in the end strengthened the friendship.

Everybody’s busy now, we see each other so seldom. how i wish those times to be rewind and bring back all those happy times(not those bad of course). But we all know it’s not gonna happen. but instead face the present and be ready for what our future be. As long as we all have communications, friendship will still bind us….

Miss you friends!!!

Miss you all!!!

If you only knew how i really miss you…..

Loving someone isnt just needing but wanting. people loved because they want to share their feelings to someone special to them. loving takes time.it is not rush.but loving can sometimes lead to misinterpreting of feelings.where somebody will get hurt,cry and be depress. one might loving you but in the end everything will change because he feels like hey we are not meant to each other. Loving someone and to be loved back in return is a great feeling to feel. its priceless…. so love wisely!